Baby has been head down for quite a while now, so here's hopin' she/he stays that way (or gets back that way should a flip happen). I've become pretty good at feeling out baby's body parts, especially the bumpy butt. Kind of fun-- makes me feel all midwife-y!
As someone who has been reading pregnancy blogs like a madwoman, I'm going to put tons of details in here that probably most people don't care about at all. Because I know there's some pregnant woman out there who will be so thankful for all the info. It's really easy to feel kind of alone in pregnancy. Even though Nate is awesome and excited, he just doesn't get it, biologically speaking.
This third trimester has brought a whole new meaning to the word "hormonal". I had no idea that this was part of it. I'm somewhat of an emotional wreck... like all of my feelings blend together, so I end up being a mess of angry/happy/sappy/lonely/sad/anxious/excited/etc. It's rather exhausting. And I really don't love how quickly I cry over dumb stuff. I'm hoping that when classes start next week, I'll be better due to more distractions.
I'm not a fan of the pre-made preg. blogs, but I do like some of the things they share. One of the things they talk about are things that you miss. Here's what I miss: laying on my stomach at night (or to have Nate give me a good back rub), being excited to hit up fun breweries over summer, NOT being an emotional wreck, having the energy to bust out a ton of projects all at once, having a stomach that's not squashed so that I can actually eat a whole meal, being able to roll over/get up/etc. without finding it to be a tricky thing, and that's about it.
Things I LOVE: baby movements, turning the baby room into a somewhat-bohemian-ish hangout ;), organizing hand-me-down clothes & cloth diapers, finding out we have amazing friends who have donated us almost everything we actually will need, seeing how excited my mom is, watching the Bilbo cat boy express his concern over the new baby stuff (and his joy over being held in our Baby K'Tan carrier!), interacting with baby's movements, reading birth stories (I especially loved the ones from Ina May's Guide to Childbirth book... really gave me an actual picture of what birth entails), and so much more.
So many friends are having babies this year... One friend just had hers like a month early (baby is fine!), another one is a week past her due date and getting anxious, another was a week before her scheduled c-section, Nate's cousin's was over a week past the due date, and another friend's came 2 weeks early. Oh, and our midwife had her baby boy 2 weeks past the due date! So, I need to be prepared for any timeline! :) I sure am glad we are planning a home birth, because I think that alone will ease my anxieties about the timing and everything. Hospitals and such cause me a whole lot of anxiety. Obviously if there's a need, we will be transferred (and our midwife has an awesome relationship with one of the local hospitals that is close by and would stay with us there through everything), but I'm hoping things work out here at home where I feel comfortable. We'll have a pool here for labor, but I am not planning on a water birth. I'm not the biggest fan of water, and even though I *know* the baby wouldn't take its first breath until surfacing, I think it would make me panic.
Phew, this was a whole lot of info. I feel like pregnancy brain has turned me into a rambler. I never used to email people very much, and I certainly never had so much to say about one topic, so this is purely a pregnancy symptom.
